Loner <3

2011-11-01T02:10:00.001+08:00

Sigh, i swear i wont leave you.

If i want to leave u..

Why would i even bother to lie to myself?

Why would i even give u chance again and again even u did something i hate?

2011-10-30T21:24:00.002+08:00

We are both selfish and stubborn.

The insecurities u gave me cannot open my heart for you to stay.

That's why i dont feel the love you gave me.

If you loved me enough, you wouldn't force me to the end of corner..

Left me no choice.

You should know that both you and her are my precious.

Yes, in my eyes there is only me.

Because u have always showed me that u dont care.

All i could do is see you being tired and feel heartache.

To think back that u scared, i also feel useless.

Maybe this is the best way to end to pain between us..

2011-10-23T10:55:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.

2011-10-19T18:33:00.000+08:00

Can you do that for me?

Can you do this as how i can do it?

2011-10-19T18:31:00.002+08:00

Thats my boy!

The boy i love :)

No matter how good or bad, i will still love yaa ~

& the reason is because, i love you too much.

Thats y i am crazy all about you~~

2011-10-19T18:28:00.001+08:00

Each time i look at your face/picture.

You really look very cute!

2011-10-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

People who take things for granted never get to face the music.

Yet people who is trying to save, trying to cherish always get to face the music.

How can u all relief the pain in my heart?

Is this what i have to get to stay in here?

Is this the gift i should receive?

Buying things for me? Give me your unwanted items?

All these cannot solve the problems you all have caused and made me to get blamed.

2011-10-17T21:20:00.001+08:00

This is call love?

Why do i feel so much pain

Yet i dont mind being with you?

Or isit i am too silly?

Because i have always believe that there is a chance and hope..

2011 Graduation Ceremony

2011-10-17T20:40:00.003+08:00

Invitation

Wishes from classmates and teachers

Free drinks from auntie

Class photos!

2011-10-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

Yups, You mean alot to me.

Even with just a simple word, "No" or "i cant meet you" it really hurts me alot

2011-10-16T00:07:00.006+08:00

I just wanna work hard on everything..

But I've been advice to focus on one.

But i couldn't afford to...

I cannot afford to lose/miss anything...

I just wanna work on everything..

Even i am very tired.

Because i know, i would be paid off for the effort i gave and put in one day.

I am super exhausted..

I wonder if anyone would know how tiring am i...

Sleeping less than 7hrs per day...

Only could sleep more, and sleep as much as i need during the weekends.

Working hard on weekdays, to finish my work.

Till i am sleeping late everyday.

My eyelids are closing. Yet i am forcing myself to stay awake.

I am stubborn, because i want to hand in work on time..

But sometime i couldn't hand in work on time because i am too tired to continue doing...

I am tired even i sleep for a long time...

I don't mind waking up early in the morning to meet up you.

I don't mind how tired am i to meet up with you

Because you are my everything and the reason to keep myself awake and to work hard.

You've always give me disappointment, but i forgive again and again.

Why?

Because i love you for everything even if i don't like it, i don't mind.

I will cherish every moment we had together.

Whether is good or bad, i will always cherish.

I'm crying and bleeding inside..

I'm calling for help.

I'm hoping for a comfort.

If i could hibernate 1 day...

Please wake me up when my wish is granted.

Because i am too tired to move on and to face the problems

Heading to sleep now... feeling sleepy... Eyelids are heavy... they are closing.

I hope you will turn up today and not giving me disappointment.

It's my dad birthday today!

2011-10-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

I missed this moment we had..

I could feel the love and warmth you gave me.

2011-10-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

Everynight, i will carry my phone near my bed, just to wait for your reply.

Even i am halfway asleep, i would wake up and read it.

And back to back to sleep with words that cant describe how the way i feel.

More than happy.. And felt loved?

2011-10-15T23:50:00.003+08:00

Yep... Just a message from you.. makes my heart all go pumping. ;/

Receiving other people's message instead of you, make me feel so sian-ed.

Been doing this since the day i fall for you.

2011-10-15T23:42:00.001+08:00

I've always feeling this way...

Tell me that i am not annoying you.

Show me that i am not annoying you.

2011-10-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

Maybe this explains how i felt each time i feel like giving up...

As i will end up crying...

And this is what i meant by feeling useless and only could cry out loud

2011-10-15T23:21:00.002+08:00

This is how silly can a girl be...

“Even if it is not my fault i will still say I’m sorry.

Even if he flirted other girls i will just think that I’m the only girl in his life.

Even if he’s lying, i will still believe in every word that he will say.

Even if he left me, i will still wait for him for the rest of my life.

Even if he hates me now, i will still love him forever..

Love is really blind and it mean more than a four-letter-word."

2011-10-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

You made me believe with what i saw with my own eyes.

But, you cant make me believe the purpose/reasons behind the image.

2011-10-15T22:51:00.003+08:00

Marriage..?

._.

Sometimes i think do we even qualify to.

Because i wish to understand you, hear u. but you are always keeping to yourself.

Yes, i will commit if i am old enough.

The matter is whether u wanna wait anot?

From what i can see.. you dont really care for me.

You said u miss me. but isit real?

I hope is real .

I might not know what you are thinking,

But i have always thinking that you always love me, care me, worry for me.

Just that, you dont wanna show me.

2011-10-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

I will nvr walk out of this circle because im blinded with 4 letters word.

I couldnt walk out because i think there is still hope.

I couldnt walk out because i still love you.

I couldnt walk out because my heart still beats for you.

I couldnt walk out because my tears are always rolling for you.

I couldnt walk out because i love your everything.

But why..?

I gave in so much, yet all i get is a little thing and happiness.

I've lost friends, motivation.

I've cry a lot for you.

I've always been hoping.

Hope after hope.

Why at the start of r/s is sweet?

Why is there temporary happiness?

2011-10-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

I am worried.

I am worried

I am worried.

2011-10-02T15:24:00.002+08:00

after about 2 months of breakup, we both find it very difficult for each other.

and, we're patch back together.

Dear, just like the quote i quoted from somewhere.

indeed, love is blind.

Thats y i love everything about u .

2011-09-26T21:48:00.002+08:00

Its Monday again!

Gotten back my full physic paper 2 results! I've scored 42/65!

Now waiting my MCQs, Practical and Biology.

Fortunately, I've also just passed my Geog.

Which i think i might fail because of the 8 marks qns....

Anyway, its a tired day...

Gooodnight!

2011-09-25T11:36:00.003+08:00

Time to blog!

Haven't been blogging for afew days. ;/

Was having fun with my Jiexin, my bbyg, his brothers, his friends, and my friends!

I couldn't believe that i have actually laugh too much after eating until i vomit :O

After having a dinner with them, we went home.....

Before that!

Went to have some photo taking ;3

Saturday, which is yesterday. A very tiring day!

Doing housework whole day!

And booked a very far away BBQ. sighh...

Today gonna pay the $ for booking.

Its a busy day for me again!

Busy with praying...

I wish i could concentrate on my studies 200% now.

If i could settle down now..

2011-09-22T22:47:00.004+08:00

I guess you guys have heard of a saying "If you love someone or something then let go, it will return to you if is yours"..

Sometimes its really ridiculous to let go of someone you love.

You fear losing him because you love him.

To say is easier than to be done.

Its very hurtful to let go someone you love.

Knowing that you have to let go, you might even wish he could get bad luck and hope he could regret.

The pain is indeed unbearable when you are in a relationship..

Because when a relationship ends, u nid to let go.. and never going to know if he is meant to be yours, or will he come back.

What i think is the best is that, never even start from the beginning.

So we could avoid unhappiness...

Today was my last paper of my preliminary exams! HORRAY!

But this is not the end!

O' lvls examination!

Finally i've reached my expectation of my fried kuey teow.

i am finally satisfied!

I guess, thats all for today!

2011-09-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

counting down... 32more days to my 1st paper for O lvl!

Scared my eng fail sia......

haish! i shld start revising!!! omg!

2011-09-20T17:59:00.003+08:00

My blog seems to be so dead.

Its time to revive it and throw u out of my life!

Indeed, you're not worth for me to cry, for me to give u more chances.

And i shouldn't think that we still got hope and chance to be together once again.

Its painful to let go and to forget.

I shall try my best and treat you like a bastard.

A bastard i shouldn't remember.

Ever since i broke up with you. I cut my hair short. I change the way i dress.

The best part is i realised my friends are better than you. Because i finally get a chance to hear that how good am i was to them before. & its because of you you you! I've been thrown back to hell and emo. Happiness, laughter are all gone.

Its a waste of tears to cry for you. Because, no matter how much i cry and i hope. You will never be back.

Ohwell, as usual, if you still think that couple who hug together in the public, i suggest you should just stay single forever.

I should be cruel to you.

Time is always passing and ticking.

Days are getting nearer to my birthday and exams.

I shouldn't have waste my time and tears on you.

Since u left all the pain for me to suffer..

2011-08-27T23:04:00.001+08:00

Walking down the road, i see trees grew up after so many years.

It grew so tall!

I use to play the fruits from the tree. lol but the tree have grown so tall. xD

2011-08-14T12:35:00.000+08:00

i guess, i shld calm down

2011-08-09T23:37:00.001+08:00

nobody understand.

feeling so tough now.......

I just love u so much. sigh

2011-05-29T01:40:00.001+08:00

@@ erm, i wonder y . :O

2011-02-27T19:08:00.002+08:00

爱要怎么表达？

也许，我表达得不够好。

我应该怎么表达, 才能让你知道, 在我心里, 我真的很爱你.

爱到能为你而牺牲, 就算是很委屈. 我都会觉得是值得的.

也许在我心里, 你是我的第一位. 比任何人重要, 宝贵.

This is my weakness.

I'm always softhearted to someone i love.

& i will pamper him.

I will not shed my tears for a show.

I shed my tears because i truly feel sad and feared.

And i will never shed my tears for a show to pretend..

2011-02-27T12:39:00.002+08:00

really cannot pamper people.

pamper liao some other ppl will take advantage.

stupid me, why am i still so soft hearted.

Why i can tell people "dont rely on others, rely on ourselves is better."

but i always relying on others.

This is crap.

This is stupid.

This is foolish.

2011-02-23T18:32:00.002+08:00

Am i stressing?

Sometimes i really feel like giving up Chinese..

but i cant. I must push myself to improve.

I also feel like giving my cca.

But its too late..

I feel like giving up my dreams, because.. the state i am now.. its impossible..

I'm tired..

I'm untidy..

Everyday co until 5.30pm, about 6.05 then reach home.

Sigh! then i need to rush my art!

I guess, i need time management.

2011-02-17T19:46:00.001+08:00

Why do we have to feel fatigue?

Why does 24hour is enough for people and not enough for people?

When you're busy, time always past by so fast.

When you're bored, it feels like so slow.

2011-02-16T21:33:00.001+08:00

YUJIN!

You are so untidy! D:

2011-02-13T10:55:00.000+08:00

我觉得，活着好辛苦。。

2011-02-10T20:20:00.004+08:00

If you really care for me, u wont force me to do that something i hate and that something u like when i feel painful to continue it.

Because of you, i always blame and regret.

Have you ever think of how i feel?

Yes, you're my mother.

But he is the one im going to date with, to walk with. Not you.

Stop saying he is a bad person.

I never hear u say anything good about my friends.

You think i got such a poor short term memory until i can forget things i angry and hate meh?

I never. I even remember you said, "你交的朋友都是烂朋友。"

So u sure u never say my good friends are bad friends?

He is the one who encourage me to take O levels after N levels.

Not you. If is not because of him, i would be in ite now.

Because i want to leave the place i very sad and struggling for to be happier after mentally is tortured again and again.

Do you know i really very sad, depressed?

Do you know i sometimes feel like dying? because i feel so sad?

You don't know.

When i Sec1 Normal Tech, u know y i can be so sad even i shld be happy?

Because of the things u made me to do.

I know i have always said that you don't care how i feel.

I don't mind u don't care me, cause its almost equal.

Its okay for me to accept it, just don't pissed me

2011-02-08T22:56:00.001+08:00

Why am i staying at the same point?

Why cant i move forward?

2011-02-07T21:06:00.001+08:00

I've change because of hate.

I've change from an angel to a devil.

I wish i could forgive.

Please give me back the old me.

2011-02-07T20:11:00.003+08:00

Thats the reason y i wish to dump "things" so i wont be so crazy thinking over it.

i know u dont care.

i know we dont use to be like last time.

1st, we dont webcam anymore.

2nd, u didn't say i love u and i miss u anymore.

3rd, even i miss u so badly. u seems like u have no reaction.

how i wish i can back to be like last time.

the history im afraid of now is one day u will say

"i wait for this day very long le"

maybe behind me u're trying to let me give up on u, because u doing such things.

ya, i seems to be living in the past. cant forget about the past.

thats because i dont want it to happen again.

2011-02-06T21:13:00.003+08:00

I don't know how to express how much i love you.

I don't know how to express how much i miss you.

I don't know how to express how much i need you by my side.

I don't know how to express how badly i want u.

I just miss you so much..
and i realise we have always a cycle going on and on, again and again.

Each day, when i wakeup, i always think of the time we hug together and sleep, to see u beside me, feel u beside me.

2011-01-29T18:22:00.001+08:00

爱一个人，很辛苦。

想一个人，很辛苦。

只有被爱和被想是最幸福的

2011-01-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

Sorry dear, i dont the purpose of living.

im being over protected.

i dont know wad is workhard.

hope when im with u, i can realise wad does workhard means..

and.. i also dont know wad is life all about..

not just meeting..?

then what should i do?

i sounds like a baby who dont know anything haha

2011-01-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

you alwas think that im stupid, im lazy. i always find excuse.

i always do bo liao things.

buy drawing paper also got wrong.

buy stationary for myself to use also got wrong.

i think i do wad also wrong.

ya, u say u wad also right la hor.

but have u ever think how i feel?

have u ever want to understand me?

have u ever think of how to get close to me?

2011-01-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i wonder, who is the person that will be always there for me? (i wish is you, yongen) :P

who is the person that will walk with?

2011-01-08T16:31:00.002+08:00

its 2011 alrdy!

this is my 1st post for this yr ;D

so suey, got chickenpox.

mc until 12dec.

sigh!

sure alot homework for me to be done.

2010-12-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

Sigh,

i guess, i really love sick le bahs.

i have no appetite to eat, no mood to do anything.

all i ever think is.. you.

2010-12-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

我一定要告诉自己，

“我要忍！！”

2010-12-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

i guess, the taste of getting o lvl in the end will feeel great.
i must hang on. :(

2010-12-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

你说你发现我们的问题。

为何不问自己，是不是自己的错？

为何不从小时候培养？

为何要把我抓得那么紧？

为何不给人机会？

为何我要说谎？

为何我变成这样？

是什么原因，你很确定我交的朋友都是坏朋友？

Mum..

2010-12-10T01:39:00.002+08:00

Do you understand me?

I just want freedom.

Must u catch me so tight?

You want me to be honest right?

I can.. But im really feel so tired.

Like breathless.

I need oxygen.

I need to relax.

I know you care about me.

But u dont need to over care about me.

There's actually things i knnow.

And also, you dont know my fren is like how de people.

Dont anyhow assume ppl is bad de.

2010-12-08T23:40:00.004+08:00

I have a wonderful day talking with dear~

Muack! i lurve you

2010-12-08T01:06:00.001+08:00

Tsktsk, i know u backstab me.

Don't have to be nice in front of me.

Don't have to pretend that u fear of me.

2010-11-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

D: 17dec is the date of releasing N lvl result.

*praysssssssssssssssss*

2010-11-16T00:49:00.002+08:00

No communication between parents and children, is a bad thing..

This is something very painful to go through.

2010-11-14T00:51:00.006+08:00

U think you elder so what? Are u still that childish to disturb and pissed ppl off giving u warning that im going to be angry soon and yet u kick the door. Wait one day i piss u off, and i kick ur door later. see u want shout ppl anot. Stop using your age to say people no manners. I dont care how old are u, i only know u very noisy and make ppl angry. still kick ppl door, in the end say i no manners.

三十岁，又怎样？还不是没有一个。
没有付出过，还讲话那么大声。
我没礼貌，你没用。
Whatever u use in the kitchen, all is i refill de.
Do you know the feeling of people want to have a drink and dont have?
Do you know, u make me want to scold u.
& how old are u !
不自动

请记得，我没有礼貌。
你，很自私，没用，没良心，大牌。

And one more person,

what does ok means?

hah.

i really dont know how to believe u.

i can only think that you're always lying.

dont know when is real when is lying.

你们让我觉得很辛苦。

一次的又一次，让我受伤，让我伤心。

2010-11-09T00:38:00.002+08:00

担心，是真的。

在乎，是真的。

想你，是真的。

害怕失去你，是真的。

怕你嫌弃我，是真的。

如果，不把害怕记在脑海里，我不可能会 Prevent and be aware.

2010-11-02T01:38:00.004+08:00

我很开心

因为，我原谅和放弃了。

就因为这样，I have get out of it ! :D

Continue my lovely life with my Mr Loong Yong En. :D

I miss you so much dear! :D

Have a sweet dream, nice sleep.

I guess.. i have started to forgive and forget. :)

Im gonna move on, and change step by step.

2010-10-29T10:37:00.002+08:00

Sighh, i missed you .

说不出的想念。

2010-10-27T00:58:00.001+08:00

day after day,

things are still left undone.

when will i really do my things? :O

sigh

Missing you badly already, not even an hour yet.

Are you reading my blog?

2010-10-26T04:53:00.002+08:00

Everytime, when i look at u, i feel so warm and safe, (:

I just LOVE you so much that i cant explain .

2010-10-12T00:35:00.001+08:00

Stop being so concern about me.

I feel so fake that i cant it.

Just because you're luckier than me,

i felt that i dislike you ._.'

2010-10-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

Let past be the past.

So, stop looking for me.

2010-10-06T14:03:00.001+08:00

I've been thinking and stalking you lately~

I miss youu so much. :)

2010-10-05T21:20:00.001+08:00

我是依赖者。。。

2010-10-01T18:15:00.003+08:00

时间真的过的好快哦。。

一转眼，我已经种四了。

今年，在考"N" Level..

About 7 more days

i will be leaving this school.

or maybe.

being optimistic,

i will have a long break. (:

I really hope i can receive a good results.

but by the way how i behave,

i know i wont.

I'm going to grow up..

I have to face independent.

I have to change my life.

I have to open up..

I have to walk out and face them!

2010-09-25T12:18:00.003+08:00

Grrr.

YOU dont have heart in this family.

u dont even have the rights to come and attitude to me.

if u have, u would have come home everyday

u wouldnt dont know my character.

yes i changed alot.

wad can u do?

my temper is bad.

wad can u do?

thats me!

u dont know me because u didnt come back.

when i young, i like de brother become dont want come home.

nvr play with me anymore.

nvr chat with me anymore.

小时候的我，喜欢和大哥哥一起玩。

成长的我，哥哥每次不在家。

长大的我，哥哥已经不了解我了。

2010-09-20T18:50:00.003+08:00

我不是好人。。:(

I realised, im wrong for making myself to think that, What is mine, Means mine..

It make feel so pain now.

How stupid i was.

I really preferred to be the me in the past.

but all these hates will not change.

2010-09-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

说你不认识我。

说我变了。

我不是好人。

请你，别再加重我的恨。

我也不想到那个地步

2010-09-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

HAVE you all understand and give a thought of me?!

2010-09-10T10:49:00.001+08:00

Sigh, im tied down.

Why cant i dress up like other girls? Being pretttty?

虽然，我变了很多，但是心里面的我，那个心暖的我，还在。

我还很在乎。我还在关心。我还爱着你们。

2010-09-09T23:41:00.001+08:00

Filling in my closet with nice clothes that is suitable to wear out for hangouts ♥

2010-09-08T19:39:00.002+08:00

So you have finally realised the importance of your studies ya?

You're feeling so regretted ya?

You have the chick to say "I finish the paper in 15mins! Anyhow do!" during your midyr.

Now you're crying for cant complete your paper on time.

This shows that from the start you did not even really care about your exams till the very last min you rush.

There's no use envying of others, only you could push yourself to work hard.

Since people made it, why not you can?

If you have put in effort to work hard from the start of the year, is never too late.

2010-09-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

Addicted to edition of pictures! ♥

2010-09-06T21:55:00.001+08:00

You're pretty, yet you're destroyed.

Please come back.

2010-08-31T20:57:00.002+08:00

Stand at my angle and think how i was i feeling when i wokeup to see my eyes having a vessle burst and not knowing that that was a vessle burst.
the feeling is so horrible.
i was feeling so scared and worried.

2010-08-30T22:11:00.001+08:00

学者失去吧。

努力的追回来。

2010-08-29T09:58:00.003+08:00

Home is where I feel belong do,

Outside is where i feel for entertainment.

Library is where i feel i can focus on studies.

2010-08-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

虽然你已经开始努力了，我不再气你为了不在乎你的学业。

你说你要赢回来，

可惜，我要自私的说，

是我的，就是我的。别从我的生边拿走。

不然，我的的“恨”也会真对你。

2010-08-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

Whee. changed blogskins!

But my blog is still as dead as ever~!

2010-08-15T11:38:00.003+08:00

Stop telling me "I dont know, ask the wrong person"

I wonder if u really care for ur studies not.

U seems like u dont care, yet u care for wad result u get.

sigh, if u dont make the effort to go and be bother for ur studies, u wont get much improvement as time is.. sigh.

Exams, N lvl, are around the corner alrdy.

2010-08-08T23:19:00.001+08:00

I'm good for nothing..

I guess i dont know how to live for a life.

2010-08-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

我真的很后悔，可是后悔也来不及了。

因为，已经造成了很深的伤害。

没人可以帮我，救我。只能靠自己努力赚来。

2010-07-31T12:23:00.002+08:00

when a person, alrdy kept so much hurt, regret, anger and tired of continuing.

really, feel like giving up.

im just a person who want to leave this sad place asap.

2010-07-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

Sigh,

Yujin, i hate you.

I am responsible for that.

Its my fault..

2010-07-24T11:38:00.001+08:00

我觉得。。

还是靠自己比较好。

以前的，也比较好。

这颗心已经碎了。。

2010-07-22T18:21:00.004+08:00

我周围的朋友，命都很好。

但是我的呢？

伤心，嫉妒，不满意。。

有一个朋友，命很好。

另一个朋友，很幸福。

另一个旁有，不怕钱用完了，没有再多的钱花。

另一个朋友，漂亮又可爱，让人很喜爱她。

那我呢？

没钱，没车送我要到目地地，没有很多人喜爱我，身材不怎么好，不幸福。

每一件事，我都放进心思去做，努力的走下去。

我得到的是什么？

我还得不到我要的快乐，幸福。

开始，习惯一个人了。

总觉得，这一已经不是我了。

改变了。

而且，是越改越差。

2010-07-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

为了自己，不能放弃，要坚持下去。。

2010-07-12T21:55:00.002+08:00

Sigh.

I wanna leave this school asap.

JUSSST! A few months or maybe 1 more year.

I don't need to face all these stupid people.

I'm just not that stupid as you think.

It's because I'm not engaged,

So I'm afraid okay.

If i were to be to promoted down wards, i think i don't have the face to make new friends with the new class.

Instead of showing off, i will feel disgraced.

In my mouth, i can say i am happy.

but the truth is, i am not.

I guess, this will be the 2nd time i wish to leave a place asap.

When i was in Primary school, how much i wished to leave this place, this childhood place.

Because its so unhappy!

Sometimes, i wish i can never see them again.

Forget me.

I shifted house, I missed there, though they is a hurtful place for me. But full of happiness with someone who is already passed away.

Now that I am here, i still feel the same way.

After all the fearful, shyness, discouragement from myself.

I just the same old me..

Although i miss the life i had with someone, but now i only have the choice to move on..

Sometimes, things are just has no choice but to do it, follow it.

我真的很伤心。

2010-07-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

不要为我而吵架。

多关心对你很在乎的人。

那个人就会很满足了。

为了我而和母亲吵，真得很不应该。

我不介意你误会我，但是不要上她的心。 (:

在这个家里，我没有说话的地位。

如果有一天，你发现我伤心有很失望的离开，你会感到怎样？

2010-07-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

I felt that, i always hanging there.

Hoping that i wont drop.

Hoping that i can do better.

Although im hurt, i still carry on.

Just like a silly, living in own world, believing in my mindset.

2010-06-27T04:32:00.002+08:00

people said that, i still have feelings for u although we broke for 3years.

now i understand y drama show is always so sad. saying that y that person dont explain the person he/she love.

actually, is hard to open our mouth to explain

thinking that, we should let go and this is the best for u .

& i like a quote says.

" If you really love something/someone, then let go. if it returns, it meant to be urs. "

& a teacher told me before, let go of something if u really love .

now i finally could understand wad it means. sigh

i dont wish to step into ur life.

because i can see u enjoying it.

i'll be extra if i step in, and lead to unhappiness.

i will let go now..

2010-06-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

也许，心中真的有恨。。

所以放不开，想不开。

我好希望我能原谅和忘记。

2010-06-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

when will u leave my life?

how much more do u want from me?

2010-06-03T22:29:00.001+08:00

@@ sigh, complicated feeeeeeeeeeeeling.

how sucks

2010-05-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

he just walked pass me liddat & i just watch him walked pass liddat..

2010-05-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

To one of my kor:

Kor..

i still take u as my kor..

sadly, i dont wanna dont treat u like enermy. but i was too hurt but to act like i still hate you.

but i still care about u..

by seeing the way u are now.

i wished u can go back to the past.

be back to the good kor i used to know.

so please stop hurting other people anymore..

although u hurt me before.. :(

2010-05-24T22:39:00.006+08:00

I think there's no wonder would understand wad am i sadding and stressing or wadever for.

I just feel so depressed .

From someone good. let someone say until so bad.

no matter how good i treat her

she will try to destroy me.

WHY?!

i hardly get wad i want.

Achieve wad i want.

But y you want to snatch from me.

Yes, its not wrong for u to ask qns about how to play that game.

But to giv u a str8 forward ans.

u kept asking.. numerous times. i didnt angry at u but to pissed off at a moment.

If i were to ask u a diff qns. and u kept giving a str8 ans.

u also will pissed off mah.

You, also have attitude problem.

WE tolerate you.

& its ALWAYS.

But, sometimes we also have a bad mood times.

You CANT TOLERATE.

& make a shitty bloody ass comment.

Seriously, i can be dont know wad u want.

If you dont treat ME as a friend sincerely.

Then why is there a nid to threaten me to giv u a chance?

Since u dont cherish.

WHY IS THERE A NEED?!

I'm just being hurt by u again and again.

Being regret again and again.

Because i dont take advice just to giv u a chance.

I giv ppl hate.

As a friend, giv u advice giv u care.

You dont appreciate before.

Dont appreciate nvm le.. u still blame ppl.

Act innocent.

Let me be huairen..

Do you know some stories behind? No you dont...

I cant be as friendly to u as before.

From now on, i'm just a fake person to u.

With all the sarcasm.

2010-05-17T14:47:00.002+08:00

Is thinking alot questions about life a good thing or a bad thing?

Today, i've been wondering why, why should people tell lies?

And why do i feel honesty is so important that sometimes i still tell lies even thought i hate people telling me lies.

But a friend told me, to lie is maybe that person dont want that friend to know or because no trust towards that person.

Sigh, stupid life so complicated.

How i wish that everythingggg is so peace and perfect.

Loner <3

2011 Graduation Ceremony

Mum..

请记得，我没有礼貌。你，很自私，没用，没良心，大牌。

这颗心已经碎了。。

请记得，我没有礼貌。
你，很自私，没用，没良心，大牌。